Release The Sanity

Saturday, December 31, 2005

RESOLUTIONS

Happy New Year to myself! I have to congratulate myself for making it through this year, it was a rough one.

I'm very much looking forward to a NEW YEAR. Gawd, am I thrilled to bury this last year in the past.

It would be nice if there were a few more days between Christmas and New Years to think about resolutions. I've been so busy jumping from one situation to another, one plane to another that I haven't really had time to sit and reflect on this past year and what I want for myself in this new year.

A few resolutions are obvious but it's not the obvious I'm looking for. It's easy to say "yeah I'd like to change this, quit this or start doing this, this year" but just saying it or wishing isn't a realistic way to achieve it. Having time to ponder my plan. How am I actively going to achieve these changes I want? That's what I need to think about.

I have three changes in mind but I really need to think about those changes first so I am steadfast in my decision. I need definite resolve with these issues because if I go through another year doing these things I'm going to be quite disappointed in myself. I'm going to resolve to be healthier physically, mentally and be more ambitious in areas of my life. Nothing really out of the ordinary of anyone else.
But, I want to be mindful of these things, not just tip my champagne glass and say yeah I'm going to blah blah blah and by morning I'm back to my usual routine.

It's interesting because you see tons of celebrities breaking up over the holidays and I read something that explained why. Because, it's during the holidays and new years that people start thinking about where their life is headed, where it's been, they start wondering if they are truly satisfied and want to be in this spot for the remainder of their days. So the break ups begin. I want to break up with certain parts of myself!! LOL Thus, my resolutions.

This whole year did have quite a bit of good also. I need to acknowledge that. A lot of personal growth and maturity transpired. I don't think you can go through something tragic in your life and not grow in a positive way from it. It has a certain realization with it of how precious life is. How precious the moments with your loved ones are. Appreciation for the small things in life. It sorta makes you stop in your tracks and reflect on so many aspects in your life. So there's been a lot of growth lately in my world. I'm also really learning how to be a calmer person. That's been brewing for the last 3-4 years but it's really taking a jump this year and I expect that to really leap in the next 6 months. An endeavor I'm quite excited about. I have a blog pending about what that is but I'll post that later. It relates to learning mindfulness in the presence.

M is having a party tonight here at the house, somehow our house got decked out with New Year's Eve decos in a matter of days. Not quite the same as our usual crazy Halloween bashes. I limited her to 10 guests. 6 are sleeping over. A small yet elaborate celebration.

I'm happy to do this for M. She's never had a New Years Party and she didn't get to have the annual Halloween party this year. She was quite ticked about that! This year has been difficult for her also. So here I am entertaining a bunch of teenagers on New Years Eve.

Happy celebrations to all.

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