Release The Sanity

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Talk about a good kick in the arse! A book report. Ha! That made me go back to my last post and about fall off my chair laughing. Hmm, I didn't see it as such when I wrote it but some people know me too well. Nail on the head. Yes, I was "hiding" and reporting. Busted. I will tell you I didn't leave one side dish out either! LOL

This comment prompted me to reread my post and zip over to my creating template and go to town. ( the attitude of if you REALLY want to know what's on my mind... Here it is) I threw out my longest blog entry in roughly 15 minutes. Who knows how long it took it felt like 5 minutes because I was typing so fast. Not thinking and just throwing out what came to my mind. All the while being fully aware that my text did not fit together well, my points did not roll smoothly from one to the other. And, until I read it when I'm done am wondering if any of it even makes sense. But, who cares. I was being real. And it took being called on by a friend to keep me real.

I just reread what I typed and it's not all about "feelings" I can't even say what it is all about. I flow from one topic to another without tying the two together. I usually try to wrap my blogs up or have a point or my idea of a possible answer. I don't this time and don't care. I'm frustrated and annoyed. With myself and others around me.

I'm quite sure this is displaced emotion but that's the reason for this blog at this time for me to think, ponder, release, redirect and get to the point of not having displaced emotion and being in touch and real with myself. So right now I'll post what I typed in rough form because it is what it is. Maybe tomorrow I'll recant and remove it. I am tired right now and not thinking clearly. LOL But, what will not be removed is my Thank You.

Posted by FieldsOfJoy :: 4:04 AM :: 0 comments