Release The Sanity

Thursday, November 17, 2005

It annoys me that I can't make my symbol picture of hope larger. It deserves to be half the size of this blog. ( I'm still learning how to make pictures the way I want them)

Hope is so important. I don't think about hope much. I use it daily but always have referred to it as a certain perspective. Same thing if your using perspective to the best of it's nature. But I like the term hope because it defines the feeling better.

Even John Lennon credits hope for his innermost happiness and sobriety. ( You know I'm going to get Lennon in here whenever I can)

~ "The only time we took drugs was when we were without hope and the only way we got out of it was with hope and if we can sustain the hope then we don't need drugs, liquor or anything. But if we lose hope, what can you do? What is there to do?" - John Lennon

Last night I was talking with a friend and he said that he felt souless when he was younger and that I gave him hope and to this day I give him hope. I don't think I could ask to give a friend something better than that. To know that I could give someone something so important was wonderful to know. What I'd like to say to this friend is this...

I think you had a sense of hope. In even having the ability to trust me you had hope. Don't you think?

I think it's interesting that I was just credited for something that I very recently struggled to acquire myself. But isn't that hope in itself? What you do not have, you can have. What you have lost, you can find. The unknown can be discovered. The disappointing can change or create something new that's positive.

What holds us back? I know for myself it's usually fear. Too scared to take a risk, to trust and be vulnerable. It is in this vulnerable state that I actually discover the most about myself, life, love and possibilities. Hence, hope. I came to understand hope better by the absence of it. I guess I didn't realize I probably had it most of my life without a thought to it.

I picked that picture as my "symbol of hope" for a reason. Without hope everything feels dark, bleak and endless. Emerging from that to feeling hope is exactly what I see in the picture. Darkness still has the possibility of looming over you but there are softer areas and in other areas you can actually see the radiant light shine through those troubled spots. You can actually see what is behind the gloom... Hope.

Life is beautiful. In the simplest form to the deepest. From the way a wave ripples in harmony in the lake, to the ability of creating a life. It's all beautiful if you are willing to see it. One of my favorite moments is when I suddenly discover "again" to enjoy the simple things. I often forget. Suddenly, a breeze that I previously ignored feels amazing on my skin and takes my breath away with it's warmth filling me with complete peace and serenity. Taking the time to see that good. Find those moments and you'll start seeing the world around you differently.

Hope is the love of life in my opinion.

In a few days I may feel negative and see more of the ugly, we all know it's there too, but I will always come back to the moments of inner peace.

My next topic of thoughts...

Someone commented to me that I seem to use music to soothe me. Excellent observation. ;-) Then it was said that they like music to uplift them, put them in a good mood. I use music for that reason also. I actually use music for everything. LOL But, I think the point being made was... When you are in a down mood why listen to music that makes you feel down? Why not put in something that is going to cheer you up? This made me think...

I think that idea is great for those "cranky" moods. The light ornery times. But, when I am in a deeper sadness about something I want to be able to understand that feeling. Why I have it. What to do with it. What I can do about it. What will change it. The feeling almost needs to flow through me. I need to "experience" it in able to get over it. Music is a great tool for me to do that with. Once that feeling has gone completely through me I won't be back in that place ever again. It's over. And I'm onto the next phase which is usually acceptance. You need to feel the pain so you aren't feeling it in bits later on in your life. And, those are my thoughts on that. Anyway, who the heck hasn't been heartbroken and gravitates towards every stinkin sad song on the radio and think poor me wahhhhhaaaaaaahhaaa. LOL Well, if you guys haven't ever been there then, umm, well, yeah, me either!!

Oh, and when you are playing music to pull you from those cranky ornery moods what music is the best to throw in? THE VIOLENT FEMMES,of course! hehe

Well, anyway. Today is good. My toilet seat cover is warm. :-)

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